“Religion is for people who are scared of hell; Spirituality is for people who have been there.”
As a hospital worker in 2021 you have seen hell. You may have felt you were living in it some days. But you have survived. This may not be the time to question God or your religious affiliation but it is certainly the right time to pursue some spiritual support.
Maybe you will find yourself returning to a practice you have let drop over the years as you reach out for what was once so comforting.
Maybe you will want to look for something new, a new practice, a new faith community.
My thought is that we could all do with some good support and some comfort in a community. It might still need to be by Zoom. The good news is that many churches and religious communities are holding weekly Zoom gatherings and you can check them out without any commitment. They don’t even have to be in your time zone.
Also, so many churches and gatherings are on Facebook now, so that’s another way of trying things out. Check out the church or faith you grew up in, maybe things have changed for the better.
In every mainline religion there are congregations or branches that are more or less conservative or liberal. What is important is to find a spirituality and a community that nourishes your soul, affirms your identity and your wholeness, and accepts you completely. Life is too short to stay in a faith community that doesn’t accept you completely but starts out by judging your very nature as somehow inadequate or wrong.
Or perhaps, like many of us, you have grown tired of mainline religion. Two alternative churches I have checked out are Unity (Christian in focus) and Unitarian Universalists (more world religion focused). I don’t have firsthand knowledge of these particular communities, so I am not recommending them. But they are both local, both accepting and inclusive of all ethnicities and sexual orientations.
Just for your information, not a recommendation.
Unity of Metairie is on Richland Avenue and their services are live on facebook. https://unityofmetairie.com/
First Unitarian Universalist Church of New Orleans is on S. Claiborne. Their services are being held via Zoom. http://firstuuno.org/
There are so many different spiritual groups out there and now there are anonymous ways of trying them out. In this way the lockdown has given us an opportunity. You could try a new one each week and just zoom in or check in on facebook.